I woke straight up out of a dream about the OYAN contest--for some reason, in my dream, there was a tie for first place and then an award for the runner-up. I don’t know who the runner-up was, but I know I didn’t win.
Funny thing was, I woke up about fifteen or twenty seconds before my alarm went off at six. This is peculiar, because though I have been aiming for six a lot lately, I’ve been having trouble getting up at that time even when my alarm wakes me up.
The main reason my alarm is set for six in the first place is because of writing time. Sure, I could start my normal school at that time like my sister, but waking up at six always makes me feel I have more time for writing, and writing often gets skipped if I get up much later.
So. First: writing dream. Then, I wake up just in time for writing, and feel very awake. So as I start in with making my bed and things, I started praying. I prayed for my books, and my essay for King’s, and about my dream. I last entered the OYAN contest in 2009, with Forest of Lies, and discovered my double-standard of priorities in writing. It has been a long recovery since then, and I’ve been very careful about my 2012 plan. I would like to win, or at least place in the top three, very much, but I keep reminding myself that is not the reason I write, and it should not be what I base the importance of my words on.
In the midst of this, I realize what would be a good use for my notebook: writing down these prayers. I’ve heard about prayer journals before, and even sort of kept one for awhile. I’ve decided to keep this one on writing for a couple of reasons:
1) Records: I think it will be interesting to read over old prayers in the months or years from now.
2) But mostly, for focus. It is distressing how often I fall off track of what I’m really trying to do with writing, either because of stress, or just trying to figure the muttermumble plot out, or editing woes, or the longing for glory that sunk me in 2009.
I’m praying for several things. I’m praying for help with plot and character relationships. I’m praying for guidance in theme. For focus on what’s important. For revelation on how to edit. But also for my readers. Writers write for readers, and I think keeping the people I’m writing for in my mind will really help. I’m praying for me, my words, and the people that might read my words.
I’m excited to see where this will take me.
How about you? Have you ever kept a prayer journal? What do you think about praying over your writing?